I've never been drunk. I've never been in a (physical) fight. I've never stolen anything, used controlled substances, or quit a job without giving 2 weeks notice. I'm 27.
Reading this entry I thought, squeaky clean, I wonder how far people go thinking that about me?. Don't get me wrong. I am by no means trying to side with your former partner whom I've never met and say some shit about how 'maybe you don't know her like you think you do' or... some other bullshit. That would be ridiculous. The relationship wasn't moving you in a direction you wanted to go in. You were right to end it. She could have been a perfect match for everything you think you are and everything you want to be, and if the relationship wasn't moving you in a direction you wanted to go, then you'd be right to end it. That's all there is. We owe no one.
All that said, the other side of my personal coin? I'm really not very nice. Not even the feigned, socially-mandated kind (I'm polite, I'm civil; I guess the point here is I'm not talking about my conduct in my interactions with other people on a daily basis, though sometimes what I am talking about informs my interactions with other people) of nice where I stay in the lines and am predictable, or charmingly eccentric but harmless. But yeah. I do wonder, sometimes, about the fact that my propensity for hedonism and self-indulgence wanders away from a lot of the things that are more common among my peer group. And whether that makes people think those impulses don't exist, and that I don't follow them. :>
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Reading this entry I thought, squeaky clean, I wonder how far people go thinking that about me?. Don't get me wrong. I am by no means trying to side with your former partner whom I've never met and say some shit about how 'maybe you don't know her like you think you do' or... some other bullshit. That would be ridiculous. The relationship wasn't moving you in a direction you wanted to go in. You were right to end it. She could have been a perfect match for everything you think you are and everything you want to be, and if the relationship wasn't moving you in a direction you wanted to go, then you'd be right to end it. That's all there is. We owe no one.
All that said, the other side of my personal coin? I'm really not very nice. Not even the feigned, socially-mandated kind (I'm polite, I'm civil; I guess the point here is I'm not talking about my conduct in my interactions with other people on a daily basis, though sometimes what I am talking about informs my interactions with other people) of nice where I stay in the lines and am predictable, or charmingly eccentric but harmless. But yeah. I do wonder, sometimes, about the fact that my propensity for hedonism and self-indulgence wanders away from a lot of the things that are more common among my peer group. And whether that makes people think those impulses don't exist, and that I don't follow them. :>